I'm completely over it, as if I was serious,,bwahahaha. Anyways, my life is more of a joke, nothings really serious. I love the way I am, and I love what I have.
You see the pictures of these cute babies? Thats my first loves(Bryan's) twins, ouch! And when I saw it, It made me smile and ache for a while. They're so cute, I gave up my love so these kids can be with their father. It'll be cruel not to let him go, and too selfish to take their father away from them. I am proud I was completely over it, I saw his pictures with his kids, he looks happy. I and him are still in good terms, were friends - plainly friends. The last time I talked to him, he's a bit funny, he keeps saying I wasn't happy and he keeps blaming himself. Told him I am happy and doesnt need to blame himself forever, things happen for a reason. That was past, there's nothing we can do about it and I already forgave him , we just need to move on.
A little about us, knew him from head to foot. Were very close, and I cant forget the days I was with em. We both studied in Cebu, same hometown, all far from our parents. I get to see him 3 times every week because were from different school. There's lots to remember,, memories that makes me smile every now and then. I still remember when he was sick, I took care of em, always sleep on his arms and feel comfortably secured,,good ol days...sweet memories,,our song " I wanna be with you" by Mandy Moore,,lol... when am sleeping he's just staring at me and wakes me up with his gentle kisses all over my face, the paintings he made while waiting for me from school,, always wears his shirt, hehehehe. Those are the few unforgettable treasured moments. There's a lot actually , I couldn't count.
Some experiences are rather very painful, specially when I heard he impregnated another girl. It's painful as hell, sometimes I wish I'd die, or to get to sleep and never awaken forever. I was lost then, I just keep drowning myself in liquors, killing myself little by little. But I got through it, and I've learned a lot from it too. Learn to be strong, learn to welcome and let go of people in your life. Some things are meant to be remembered and treasured good or bad, the happiness, sweet memories, hurt and pain :)
You see the pictures of these cute babies? Thats my first loves(Bryan's) twins, ouch! And when I saw it, It made me smile and ache for a while. They're so cute, I gave up my love so these kids can be with their father. It'll be cruel not to let him go, and too selfish to take their father away from them. I am proud I was completely over it, I saw his pictures with his kids, he looks happy. I and him are still in good terms, were friends - plainly friends. The last time I talked to him, he's a bit funny, he keeps saying I wasn't happy and he keeps blaming himself. Told him I am happy and doesnt need to blame himself forever, things happen for a reason. That was past, there's nothing we can do about it and I already forgave him , we just need to move on.
A little about us, knew him from head to foot. Were very close, and I cant forget the days I was with em. We both studied in Cebu, same hometown, all far from our parents. I get to see him 3 times every week because were from different school. There's lots to remember,, memories that makes me smile every now and then. I still remember when he was sick, I took care of em, always sleep on his arms and feel comfortably secured,,good ol days...sweet memories,,our song " I wanna be with you" by Mandy Moore,,lol... when am sleeping he's just staring at me and wakes me up with his gentle kisses all over my face, the paintings he made while waiting for me from school,, always wears his shirt, hehehehe. Those are the few unforgettable treasured moments. There's a lot actually , I couldn't count.
Some experiences are rather very painful, specially when I heard he impregnated another girl. It's painful as hell, sometimes I wish I'd die, or to get to sleep and never awaken forever. I was lost then, I just keep drowning myself in liquors, killing myself little by little. But I got through it, and I've learned a lot from it too. Learn to be strong, learn to welcome and let go of people in your life. Some things are meant to be remembered and treasured good or bad, the happiness, sweet memories, hurt and pain :)
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